"wish i may" by Ani DiFranco

losing my love of adventure
losing all respect for me and myself tonight
i wonder what happens
if i get to
the end of this tunnel
and there isn't a light
i've worn down the treads
on all of my tires
i've worn through the elbows
and the knees of my clothing
and i'm staring down the gravel
driveway of desire trying not to
wake up my sleeping self loathing

do you ever have that dream
when you open your mouth
and you try to scream
but you can't make a sound
that's everyday starting now
that's everyday starting now
don't tell me it's gonna be alright
you cant sell me on your optimism tonight
don't tell me it's gonna be alright
you cant sell me on your optimism tonight

it's a stiff competition
to see who can stay up later
the stars or the street lights
and all  i really want
is to be alone with the darkness
no more wish i may
no more wish i might
it takes a stiff upper lip
just to hold up my face
i gotta suck it up and savour
the taste of my own behaviour
i am spinning with longing 
faster then a roulette wheel
this is not who i meant to be
this is not how i meant to feel

do you ever have that dream
when you open your mouth
and you try to scream
but you cant make a sound
thats everyday starting now
thats everyday starting now
don't tell me it's gonna be alright
you cant sell me on your optimism tonight
don't tell me it's gonna be alright
you cant sell me on your optimism tonight

i don't think i am strong enough
to do this much longer
god i wish i was stronger
this song can never be long enough
to express every longing
god i wish it was longer
i don't think i am strong enough
to do this much longer
god i wish i was stronger
this song can never be long enough
to express every longing
god i wish i was ....

Ani DiFranco Lyrics brought to you by danah boyd since 1995